do you ever look around at the big crowds of people around you and realize everyone has a story and memories and family and troubles and achievements and a first kiss and a broken heart but you’ll never know any of it and every human life is really intricate and expansive but oh they’ve walked into a shop and you’ll never see them again and you’ll never know just what they were thinking
I’m so fucking annoyed with everything.
Going into college is going to suck. I have no idea what classes to take. No one wants to answer my fucking questions because obviously no one cares about anyone but themselves.. I mean, it’s whatever. I’m the same way.
I get rejected by fucking everyone. Even my own parents.
I usually don’t rant because it’s unnecessary… but today for the first time I feel like I need to.
I’ve been feeling really insecure lately. About my looks, life, everything.. I try to be happy so people don’t see me as that debbie downer girl that no one wants to be around.
I feel like when people look at my face, they automatically get disgusted or annoyed by it. Like some quality about me that just screams out ANNOYING… Is it even normal to feel this way? Whatever….
When I try to talk to someone about my problems, they seem to always push it off. Like “oh you’re victoria. Whatever. You’re always happy.” I just want someone to just sit there and listen to me… I just want someone to understand how I feel. Everyday people come to me with problems and I try my very best to help them out… But when I try to tell them mine, they just don’t seem to give two shits.. Why is that? I wonder everyday.
Now I’m not saying that my life is the most horrible life in the world.. I’m actually very grateful for the things I have. I mean at least I have a roof over my head, food, hot water….. etc.. .
At the end of the day…. You only have yourself to depend on… Because no one in this world actually cares about you because they have their own shit to worry about. I guess that’s just life huh. Oh well.. I guess I have to get used to it.
remember when i met tyler the creator and such in 7/11 and he caught me taking a sneaky photo